Forgive & Forget

They say to me, “Forgive and forget,”

as if that would be any help.

I say to them, “Fuck off and farewell.”

I am not unwilling to forgive, and I’m sure that I’ll never forget,

But I’m just not sure that I’ve made it that far yet.

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Loathing Simplified

Sketching on my danger days is very charming,

and it covers up that fact that I’m self-harming.

It personifies that Pain I feel in a way they can see.

Of course, the black and white doodles don’t help me.

Especially when there are secrets beneath my sleeves,

especially when there are lies between each heave –

of sorrow, of cheer, of exhaustion, and of fear –

hidden in those lost breaths are scars unhealed.

I do all I can to keep your stories straight,

so that you only see the self-love costuming my self-hate.